Has It Always Been This Way?

by Napalm Dreams

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1.	IN BETWEEN 03:02	lyrics
I wish it could be better, But I'm still afraid of change, It's so weird that I met you, 'cause I learned you're not the same Embrace the way we breathe, And then move to find new air, It's just about a feeling, Not an impulse, to be fair. It's lonelier in the first curse, It's better when they stack against my mind, It hurts me to be better, and find... Where I should be, Or how i belong, Or when it all should happen, And if I was wrong all along, 'Cause nothing's quite as easy, As you made it all seem, But I'll find my space, Or at least somewhere in between. It's cliched that I would wish upon our stars, Despite there being maybe three or four. But what do you expect in a city of broken hearts? At what point did I learn to be such a bore. Where should I be, how do i belong, when should it all happen, Was I wrong all along, 'Cause nothing's quite as easy, As you made it all seem, But I'll find my space, Or at least somewhere in between.
2.	Constant Dust 03:34	lyrics
Just a simple touch, And it's friendly to start, I just swear that friends, don't kiss in the dark. I always forget that I'm wanted this far When we're sitting in the back, Of your dads old car. Breathing in our air, It's the radio waves, Softly singing notes, As our favourite band plays. A drop top, summer night, Drinks under the stars. I just could've sworn that friends, don't kiss in the dark. You don't call me 'cause you tell me, That I live over just a few minutes down the road. Don't promise me we're something, When I know you'll pack up your life and go. I'll be left to the dirt, That's all that I know I'm always hurt, That's the way it goes. It's constant dust, Kicked up from the road, Constant rust, On my vehicle shows, I haven't moved in a while It's a crying shame. Driving at 120, Makes me feel safer. And driving 140, Feels 17% better But it gets you home faster, And time's only relative. Since our AC's broken, this speed is relevant A drop top, summer night, A way to learn your heart. I just could've sworn that friends, don't kiss in the dark. It's constant dust, Kicked up from the road, Constant rust, On my vehicle shows,
3.	i love you 03:02	lyrics	buy track
I thought I figured out this honesty thing, But maybe it's just not true, If i couldn't learn to love myself, Then how could I say, "i love you." There was always something different, About the way you spoke, And I just never kept up. I always worried that you'd figure out, My heart and go. What kind of secrets would I spill when we were drunk? So I'd always push my love full force, So I'd always fill the calm before the storm. I'd always beg for just a moment more, Before I came through. We couldn't ever stay so long. We'd always have to say "so long." Before I said "I love you." You couldn't tame the shrew, With any demand you spoke. Was it something that I knew? Was it something that I wrote? There was always something different, About the way you spoke, And I just never kept up. I always worried that you'd figure out, My heart and go. What kind of secrets did I spill when i was drunk? We'd always need some excuse before we try. We'd always need some reward before we came through. I'd always beg for just a moment more, Before I swept in full force. We'd always have to say goodbye, We'd always have to say goodbye, Before I love you. I thought I figured out this honesty thing, But maybe it's just not true, If i couldn't learn to love myself, Then how could I say, "i love you." So I'd always push my love full force, So I'd always fill the calm before the storm. I'd always beg for just a moment more, Before I came through. We never could stay so long. We'd always have to say "so long." Before I said "I love you."
4.	Little Bee 04:14	lyrics
Show me the way, The way you fly, And I'll show you, The way I sting, You know someday, Someday we'll die, If we don't figure out, This thing. Are we calling in aggressive motions, Or movement of the next decree It's more than opinions, emotions The heat of a different breed. Teach me the value of a moment, Help me relearn how to breathe. Teach me how to make my heart sing, There's just something romantic about the way you know how to be. Let's take it from the top, I wish I could stop, Just another beat in the room. Would you ever learn my heart, I'm so ready to start, Being someone you wish you knew. The worlds withering, Just something I noticed, I wouldn't mind living through it with you. Just show me how to be. You're so sweet it makes me sick, Honey never used to be my thing, I must admit, But I'm ok to try new things. Teach me the value of a moment, Help me relearn how to breathe. Teach me how to make my heart sing, There's just something romantic about the way you know how to be. Let's take it from the top, I wish I could stop, Just another beat in the room. Would you ever learn my heart, I'm so ready to start, Being someone you wish you knew. The worlds withering, Just something I noticed, I wouldn't mind living through it with you.
5.	Someone 03:24	lyrics
Why does everything feel, Like butterflies in my throat, A weight on my shoulders, Just from words that you spoke. I guess I just like, To be something you use. It's just a horrible way, To keep far from the terrible news. Someone might need me a little bit closer, Someone might crave me a little bit more, Someone might crave me a little bit closer, Someone might need me a little bit more. If only I didn't want you all to myself. I could be a little bit closer to someone else It always keeps me up at night, But always keeps the stars alive, Haunts my waking dreams, but Powers all my drive. 'Cause I just might be in love, With someone else's best friend, But I'll spend my time away, I can't wait for my end. Someone might need me a little bit closer, Someone might crave me a little bit more, Someone might crave me a little bit closer, Someone might need me a little bit more. If only I didn't want you all to myself. I could be a little bit closer to someone else I know it's not important for these truths to come out. Because me and all my friends will live forever without a doubt. Someone might need me a little bit closer, Someone might crave me a little bit more, Someone might crave me a little bit closer, Someone might need me a little bit more. If only I didn't want you all to myself. I could be a little bit closer to someone else.
6.	Little Moth 04:41	lyrics
In constant light, You'll drown me out, I just wish I knew better. In dead of night, I don't know how To search for something safer. I'd be lost to a wilderness, If I couldn't filter this, Light so amusing. I'd be broken in, By a deadly grin. At least I'm not lonely. I remember the day, I expanded my wings for the first time, i remember the way you'd say, You'd attract me in the limelight. In constant light, You'll drown me out, I just wish I knew better. In dead of night, I don't know how To search for something safer. Sweetly you'd sing, "You're my sweet little moth, And I'm the light, That keeps you caught." Pure singing nightingale, You never owned the lamp post you called home. In constant light, You'll drown me out, I just wish I knew better. In dead of night, I don't know how To search for something safer. You're bright eyed and cotton mouth, and I'm your beautiful little moth. I'm not concerned with my health, When the track of life is what I fought. I'm careful around buzzing lights, 'Cause the past lives didn't end so well. Ask me to be patient through the night, And I'll lay down to die before I dwell. In constant light, You'll drown me out, I just wish I knew better. In dead of night, I don't know how To search for something safer.
7.	Satellites 01:43	lyrics
Moon drops and meteors, a night in the park, Call me crazy, But friends don't kiss in the dark... The way we did. It's some kind of wonderful, Some kind of hurt, Two God struck children, With our names on our shirts. You wish upon the shooting stars above, I didn't have the heart to tell you their just satellites, Connecting our world. But you looked so awestruck with your palm in my hand, And the midnight lake washing over the sand. Like you were my satellite.
8.	860.4.. 583 00:56	lyrics
It's a light in the distance, I felt the instance, Could. Bring me closer to safety, From the crazies that chase me, Should, I witness to something, A grander scheme, In a rhythmic machine. Or just respond to the numbers, Calling out for members, Of a dire dream
9.	20(CHEMICALS) 04:05	lyrics
Something felt better, Something felt worse. In another distant galaxy, Where you and I weren't cursed. by situational irregularities. Something about the way, You wrote me by name, And something about the words, You accessed in your brain. Like a separate universe raised you, On Sophie's World and Wikipedia I thought you'd be the last drug I'd ever need. But now I'm partly seeing a bit part differently. Since we were always running away, Instead of chasing our dreams Falling apart once felt better, When I thought I was the greater half. Since I'm not writing songs for you, But someone just like you. All the dependent aggravation, Made it harder to see! Now it's just a part of our winding history. It was rose covered glasses, Just as you predicted. Chemical love isn't something you force. It doesn't come in with prescription, It sprouts when I know you more... Or maybe it depletes. What's the half life of crushing anyway? I thought you'd be the last drug I'd ever need. But now I'm partly seeing a bit part differently. Since we were always running away, Instead of chasing our dreams Falling apart once felt better, When I thought I was the greater half. Since I'm not writing songs for you, But someone just like you. I use to pray... May you be the last drug I ever need May you be the last theme I ever dream May you feel so good in my lungs, And so at home in my blood.
10.	Streetlight 03:29	lyrics
What do you feel right now now now, You've got the best of me, Glowing red lights caressing your body, It's the only light we need. What do you feel right now now now, I've got the best of you, Glowing red lights caressing your body, A perfect portrait of youth. Tastes of you, Turn up the degree's, Could I get close to you, The streetlights are the only light i see, Lighting up this whole damn room, Glowing red with guarantee, Lines from the blinds lay soft on you, Maybe that's the only light I need. Can this moment even be real, What do I know, What do I know? But the streetlights are the only light we need. That's all I know, That's all I know. What do you feel right now now now, You've got the best of me, Glowing red lights caressing your body, It's the only light we need. What do you feel right now now now, I've got the best of you, Glowing red lights caressing your body, A perfect portrait of youth. Tastes of me, Creating new degree's, May I get closer to you, We've got the only light we need. Spell it out with your tongue, I don't think I'll regret it. Spill your guts it's alright, at this point we just fall to into it. Can this moment even be real, What do you know, What do you know? But the streetlights are the only light we need. That's all we know, That's all we know. What do you feel right now now now, You've got the best of me, Glowing red lights caressing your body, It's the only light we need. What do you feel right now now now, I've got the best of you, Glowing red lights caressing your body, A perfect portrait of youth.
11.	Has It Always Been This Way? 03:18	lyrics
I feel something different. There's something different in the air, Maybe I'm just old enough to notice, Or old enough to care? But it's just too damn peaceful here, I know I'm hearing differencing opinions, From ones I thought would be the pioneers, Maybe it's just a vision, Of growing up in a want-fast world, Where things come now at dastardly price, And you can own it all, the money, the girls, At a cost of your necessary vice. Doesn't that sound nice? Will we burn out with the west coast, Covered in its flames, Will we heart it in a text post, Just to do it all again? Will we learn that earth's a keeper, And we're only half it's blood? Or will we dive a little deeper, And float out with the flood? Atlantis welcomes us with open arms, She sings her siren song, Warnings of devastation alarm, I can't live out at sea for long. I don't know If I'll be here when it happens, But I'm not the only one who thinks, This ship could use a better captain, And soon before this vessel sinks. Will we burn out with the west coast, Covered in its flames, Will we like it in a text post, Just to do it all again? Will we learn that earth's a keeper, And we're only half it's blood? Or will we dive a little deeper, And float out with the flood? I don't know If I'll be here when it happens, Or if i'll see it's dying day. But I hate to be terra-assassins, When I don't have a getaway. Has it always been this way? And the west coast's burning with the sun, And the sea waits patiently to claim, I know it's always been this way?